Apollonian vs. Dionysian

There are many things that are apart of me that determines if I am an Apollonian or a Dionysian. For example, I like my desk organized and in order, but there are other times that when I'm trying to find something or if I feel lazy, I just leave it the way it is- papers stacked, photos scattered, and in a complete mess. Also, the way I put my clothes in a certain order or style, the way I organize my shoes, jewelry, and makeup. I have to always put everything in a certain way that when my moves it, it really bugs me, and this part of me I am an Apollonian.
However, there are other times that I am a Dionysian. For example, I love doing things in the spur of the moment. I like drinking and relaxing with my friends on the weekend- to be stress free from school and to be with my closest buddies. I like going to beach and watching the sunset, I would want to do so many things but the Apollonian side of me holds me back like going to school, finishing my homework before the due date, going to work and making money, doing chores, etc. I also feel guilty if I didn't do what I was suppose to do like not studying hard for a test and then when I get the results and I did poorly, I start to get disappointed in myself. I also like listening to music, watching online shows, movies, chatting with my friends, texting my friends, and talking to people. There are other times that I want to be alone and do my own thing. It's so hard to choose between an Apollonian and a Dionysian, but I think because we are all humans and because we're very complex, we are a mix of both.